Poker face

I can’t explain it, its more like a feeling that comes from my gut. It starts out where I don’t sleep, I hardly eat, and I just know something isn’t right. Kind of like the popcorn kernel that is stuck in your tooth near your gum. You know something is there and its sharp but you can’t just grip your tongue on it to swosh it out.
For years I have let the benefit of the doubt play when it comes to trusting people and accepting others. I have been burned way too many times however I always see the silver lining. People often have asked me, "Now that you know a spade is a spade are you going to hold it or fold it?" I guess I just keep playing it until I run out of cards hoping to change that particular hand that I was dealt.
Why do we continue to sit and play the game that gets us nowhere except deeper with emotions and time that you can’t pay back. There is no price for time wasted. Its not about the game its about the cards and how you play them, I understand that. If I could go back in time there were many great hands I was dealt that I folded too early because I was just so new to the game and didn’t appreciate the cards I was dealt. Always thinking there might be a better hand or how I could build off what I have, rather than realizing I had a winning hand in my book. I wish I could go back in time to that deck and play off those cards that were dealt. I know its never going to happen and its all lessons learned.
Just hard when the lessons are with your heart, time, money, etc etc etc
　
I guess If you know after a couple of hands you have no chance of winning and you are getting nowhere why we don’t just fold and be done?